My Suicide
I hear laughter ……………
I feel regret ……………
I see a smile ………………
I still can smell your perfume from the last time we've met ........
I'm
nowhere … at empty hole of time … and I still have the same question in
my mind ........... the question that I was running from a long time
ago "what is going on"
Echoes just repeating what I always turn a blind eye on .....The same question "what is going on"
Maybe
I have never known what is the answer .. but somehow I just know that
this time the answer has to differ .. because what is going on now is
different ………
Ooooooh now I remember …………
My hands are in the air like I was flying ……
The wind blows my hair … and I'm still crying ……
Standing on an edge … High there I stand ……
It felt like you're in the top of the world .. but there is no land .....
It felt like you are above the skies .. but still underground ……
As if your head is held high .. but yet you feel so drowned ………
Oooh now I remember …………
Throwing my body over that edge falling in the air .... And somehow while falling .. I see myself still standing right there ……
As if I'm not one person .. as if there is two of me … there is the one who is falling … and there is the one who's still free …
I remember misery .. and I remember tears ........
But somehow they just fade .. and slowly disappear ........
All what is left is your smile … and the rose you gave me ...........
I remember we were together .. under the shade of an apple tree .........
And I remember I'm a child with my friends playing …… playing on the green grass ……
I remember summer and spring …. And the rain on our window's glass...
I remember my path where we planted our flowers together … there were pink and white and blue ....
when pink is my family and whit was my friends .. there were happiness and joy that never ends ....
And there were always the warming blue …there were always someone beside me .. there were always you ...
All what I remember now is what keeps anyone alive … so I'm wondering what got me here falling from the skies ....
Well .. that was not so bad .. at least there were always someone there beside me who never flee out ......
So what I was thinking being here in the middle of two ends .. the sky and the ground …
And the same question "what is going on" has a different answer now ……
When suddenly my eyes opened .... As fast I go to ground ……
and now I only wish ………
wish I still got the chance ………
If I'm still on that edge … I would surely just turn around …………………………………………
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